[ and just like that, the opportunity to be honest in turn. with anyone else, tseng might deflect the question, offer a half-answer and then send the conversation down a different but parallel track. not with sasuke, though; he promised this much and he intends to hold to it. ]
No. My world is called Gaia. [ which is apparently also something that people from earth call earth, but tseng doesn't know that yet! ] And I came here from a city called Midgar.
[ he pauses to think through how best to explain the meandering trail of circumstances that led him to this, where he is now. a full explanation also requires, perhaps, some context about tseng's career. ]
I was introduced to the concept fifteen or sixteen years ago. At the time, I was a newer recruit to the unit I now lead, and my position largely involved personal security and intelligence-gathering. We had a contact inside a club not unlike the Naked Yolk, one that catered to clientele with specific tastes. [ briefly, tseng's gaze flickers somewhere to the left of sasuke's face, recalling the club, its proprietor, the people who worked there. even before he came to this place it had been a long time since he'd seen any of them. ] At the time, I felt similarly to you—that dominance was about seizing control, not being given control. That submission was weakness and something to be punished.
[ because that was what his life had taught him, up until that point. likely it's what his life would have continued to teach him, if not for outside influence.
the next part comes after a pause. slower, more deliberate. words he's not accustomed to saying aloud. ]
I suspect the madam of the house saw something in me, because as I got older she slowly brought me into her fold. As a necessity of my position I was trained in how to capture and torture and kill, and from her and those in her employ I learned how to use those same skills to bring pleasure instead of pain. [ a nod, acknowledging. ] Or pain for the sake of pleasure, sometimes. In some ways, the fact that I know so many ways to seize control from someone who doesn't want to give it is what makes me appreciate it all the more when I'm granted the opportunity to take control not by force, but by consent.
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No. My world is called Gaia. [ which is apparently also something that people from earth call earth, but tseng doesn't know that yet! ] And I came here from a city called Midgar.
[ he pauses to think through how best to explain the meandering trail of circumstances that led him to this, where he is now. a full explanation also requires, perhaps, some context about tseng's career. ]
I was introduced to the concept fifteen or sixteen years ago. At the time, I was a newer recruit to the unit I now lead, and my position largely involved personal security and intelligence-gathering. We had a contact inside a club not unlike the Naked Yolk, one that catered to clientele with specific tastes. [ briefly, tseng's gaze flickers somewhere to the left of sasuke's face, recalling the club, its proprietor, the people who worked there. even before he came to this place it had been a long time since he'd seen any of them. ] At the time, I felt similarly to you—that dominance was about seizing control, not being given control. That submission was weakness and something to be punished.
[ because that was what his life had taught him, up until that point. likely it's what his life would have continued to teach him, if not for outside influence.
the next part comes after a pause. slower, more deliberate. words he's not accustomed to saying aloud. ]
I suspect the madam of the house saw something in me, because as I got older she slowly brought me into her fold. As a necessity of my position I was trained in how to capture and torture and kill, and from her and those in her employ I learned how to use those same skills to bring pleasure instead of pain. [ a nod, acknowledging. ] Or pain for the sake of pleasure, sometimes. In some ways, the fact that I know so many ways to seize control from someone who doesn't want to give it is what makes me appreciate it all the more when I'm granted the opportunity to take control not by force, but by consent.