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[chokuto]

UN: 火
𝐓𝐄𝐗𝐓 / 𝐀𝐔𝐃𝐈𝐎 / 𝐕𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐎 / 𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 / 𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐅𝐋𝐎𝐖
𝟖♣ ( 𝑬𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻 𝒐𝒇 𝑪𝑳𝑼𝑩𝑺 )

Comments

[gurge]

Because you're still in the friendzone and, it seems, haven't made any sacrifices because of it.
I'm no longer interested.

[ lmao?? ]

[chokuto]

That tells me you're only interested in what I have to give up for someone else. Correct?

Are you in that situation now?

[gurge]

More that I was piqued by your dedication.
And one possible outcome of my own circumstances, yes.

[chokuto]

My circumstances are unique to my own dimension. I can't advise you, and anyway, I realized too late. Even if I hadn't, I value that friendship more than some nebulous fantasy that would wash it away.

[Cold and practical.]

My dedication isn't in question. I'd give my other arm, my legs, my whole body — if he needed it of me.

[Also unhinged.]

[gurge]

[ sure, could and practical. he was that way too, until: ]

And if that person were to arrive here?

[ the rest, well — he'll leave that alone. he tells himself he'll leave that alone. ]

[chokuto]

Is your friend here with you?

I don't think you'd ask me about this otherwise.

[gurge]

Naturally.

[chokuto]

[well now that that's confirmed: you're fucked, tbh]

I don't know what sort of relationship you have. But you should know it's impossible to come back from that knowledge once you've shared it. Neither of you will be the same.

If it was me, and he was here — I would move on for both of our sakes.

[gurge]

You're not much fun at parties, are you?

[chokuto]

I don't go to parties.

[gurge]

Should probably get that fixed.

[chokuto]

Why should I?

You're avoiding this subject, I can tell. I won't push because I understand. But you asked for my opinion and I gave it to you.

[gurge]

It's an important life skill.
Right there with the kindness of pretending you didn't see something that might embarrass someone, much less addressing it.

[chokuto]

[Fine, he'll let the friendzone conversation lie.]

Going to parties is an important life skill? I don't think so.

[gurge]

What do you think happens at parties? It's all power games.
The host who needs everything you can give but refuses to ask for it, all the guests in dark corners watching them with interest.
And then you, who won't go, letting it happen.

[chokuto]

Now you're not making any sense.

[gurge]

Is that so? Disappointing.
Well, good luck.