You put it in my head from the beginning. [So if he is imagining himself bent over a desk as Cy fucks him during a lesson, the fault belongs primarily to Cy.] ... It's just you.
[An echo, murmured against the slope of Cy's throat.]
I feel the same. I can't believe, sometimes — what we've done together. And how much I enjoyed it, because it was you. I don't think I would have ever let myself be... seen that way, if I hadn't met you.
( zero shame about it, either. his hand seeks out sasuke's in the nest of their blankets, and twines their fingers together before lifting it to press a kiss against his knuckles. )
Give me another six months, I'll work you all the way up to a glory hole.
( his thumb brushes across the back of those knuckles, building a topographical map of all the places they've been broken and healed and broken again. as if by doing it, this simple act, he will better commit all the dimensions of his body to memory. )
It's a gift, you know? How you are for me. I don't take it for granted. I never could.
( that pulls a laugh out of him, a deep and throaty sound. )
Christ. Okay. So it's basically a hole that you have sex through in some capacity. Sometimes the anonymity is the point, sometimes the simulated anonymity is the point. I don't really want to share you, of course, but I can't deny that I'd enjoy having you sit on the other side of a wall, sequestered away from the crowd, while you suck my cock — normally when people say glory holes, they think of cocksucking, for the record — or take it up the ass from me.
[Sasuke — blushes. A full flush of color across the face, each word out of Cy's mouth more than he could have possibly guessed from what was an innocent question.]
Oh. [???] Um.
[It's an evocative portrait; of course he's imagining it.]
( he laughs, the sound half smothered against sasuke's shoulder as he leans in and drags his teeth against him in something too affectionate to be called a bite. )
I'll teach you. It's mostly just hard work.
( which sasuke is already well acquainted with, so. the rest, the minutiae, is easy. )
[An echo of Cy's own thoughts spoken nonetheless between them as he squirms in the embrace, pushing Cy flat in order to lay more purposefully across his chest.]
[Caught, there's no point denying it — the image of Cy in his mind, golden skin beneath a hot sun, muscles bare and slick with sweat under the toil of hard work. Sasuke lifts his chin at the pet through his hair, nosing closer.]
That's fine. I'd just want to look at you. [The question furrows his brow, curious.] The herb? I've used it for cooking. It's better when fresh.
( better that than bathed in blood, at any rate. the legacy lives more in his mind than in any reality — he's been removed from active violence for so long, but it does leave a stain. )
[He doesn't argue, some part of him knowing that Cy is right even if the help might be unequal — that Cy is so much better at marshaling himself, simply due to how much experience he has. And it does make him feel good to know he's done something for the man in return for everything done for him.]
With something besides good sex?
[Delivered dryly, he pulls Cy's arm up and around his shoulders so he can burrow into a warm chest.]
( one hand brushes at sasuke's cheek, and then he redoubles the kiss against his forehead. )
Do you want to come while we're doing the scene or not? Second point, if yes is there any way you want me to act about it or anything you want me to say? I know you're into the humiliation part sometimes, but I wanna make sure it's the right flavour, you know?
[There's a thoughtful lapse in silence, considering —]
I don't know if I would be able to hold back from coming, unless you prevented it, so... I'd rather not have a permanent restriction. A temporary one is fine within the scene itself. I also don't mind if you — call attention to it in that way, to humiliate me. I trust you.
[It really can't be overstated how much he trusts Cy's judgment.]
Mm. There are toys that could be used for that, but you aren't experienced enough yet for me to be comfortable using them. I don't want you to feel like arousal is a punishment.
( sometimes it's hard to divorce that feeling even from the context of a scene, especially when it's new. )
There's not really any special way. We'll just use a plug on you and then I'll ship you off. I am gonna make you wait a bit, but not too long, okay?
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You'd be desperately imagining me bending you over a desk and fucking you, huh? Naughty boy, didn't turn your homework in on time.
( it's a gentle little foray back into it, mindful of how their last session had gone. )
We can do that. You know it's not really... the situation or the act I'm into, it's just — you. Whatever we do makes it good, because it's you.
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You put it in my head from the beginning. [So if he is imagining himself bent over a desk as Cy fucks him during a lesson, the fault belongs primarily to Cy.] ... It's just you.
[An echo, murmured against the slope of Cy's throat.]
I feel the same. I can't believe, sometimes — what we've done together. And how much I enjoyed it, because it was you. I don't think I would have ever let myself be... seen that way, if I hadn't met you.
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( zero shame about it, either. his hand seeks out sasuke's in the nest of their blankets, and twines their fingers together before lifting it to press a kiss against his knuckles. )
Give me another six months, I'll work you all the way up to a glory hole.
( his thumb brushes across the back of those knuckles, building a topographical map of all the places they've been broken and healed and broken again. as if by doing it, this simple act, he will better commit all the dimensions of his body to memory. )
It's a gift, you know? How you are for me. I don't take it for granted. I never could.
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[Corruption in progress as we speak.]
... What's a glory hole?
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Christ. Okay. So it's basically a hole that you have sex through in some capacity. Sometimes the anonymity is the point, sometimes the simulated anonymity is the point. I don't really want to share you, of course, but I can't deny that I'd enjoy having you sit on the other side of a wall, sequestered away from the crowd, while you suck my cock — normally when people say glory holes, they think of cocksucking, for the record — or take it up the ass from me.
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Oh. [???] Um.
[It's an evocative portrait; of course he's imagining it.]
If no one could see me... I suppose that's fine.
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Okay, I guess I can revise that timeline estimate.
( sluttification intensifies, actually???
more seriously — )
I'd make sure of it. ( a soft little stroke to his hair. ) Never more than you can take, always.
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[Okay, maybe he is too willing to jump at Cy's every suggestion. (No regrets.)]
I trust you. If there's something you want to try, then I want to try it with you.
[Sasuke tilts his head, angling for a kiss so he doesn't have to think about how hot his face is burning.]
... Also, I want to learn farming. Properly.
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I'll teach you. It's mostly just hard work.
( which sasuke is already well acquainted with, so. the rest, the minutiae, is easy. )
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[An echo of Cy's own thoughts spoken nonetheless between them as he squirms in the embrace, pushing Cy flat in order to lay more purposefully across his chest.]
I want to see you working. In your element.
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You mean you want to see me all sweaty and shirtless threshing grain in a field, huh?
( his tone is knowing. playful, but a little smug. )
Chaff gets everywhere, though. And it sticks to you. ( a beat. then: ) What's your opinion on basil?
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[Caught, there's no point denying it — the image of Cy in his mind, golden skin beneath a hot sun, muscles bare and slick with sweat under the toil of hard work. Sasuke lifts his chin at the pet through his hair, nosing closer.]
That's fine. I'd just want to look at you. [The question furrows his brow, curious.] The herb? I've used it for cooking. It's better when fresh.
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( better that than bathed in blood, at any rate. the legacy lives more in his mind than in any reality — he's been removed from active violence for so long, but it does leave a stain. )
It goes well with tomatoes.
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We should plant some, then.
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We will.
( we save the plants for marriage in this house!! )
Feelin' better?
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[His eyes have fallen partway closed from the hand in his hair, but now he cranes to kiss the corner of Cy's mouth with gratitude.]
You're good at that. Helping me feel better. I never realized how bad it was before, perhaps because I was so used to it.
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( his tone is soft and pensive, but there's a warmth to it, patterned down in the words as he tugs sasuke in for another kiss. )
You help me too, you know.
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With something besides good sex?
[Delivered dryly, he pulls Cy's arm up and around his shoulders so he can burrow into a warm chest.]
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( you fucking dweeb. he rubs a hand through sasuke's hair, deliberately mussing it up. )
When do you want to get started on the prep for tonight? Or do you want to put it off for a day or two? I'm okay with either.
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[After he was just cruelly edged into an unexpected orgasm? Sasuke huffs, stirring some of the hair fallen into his face from that touch.]
We can get started for tonight. I'm ready.
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( he tugs sasuke upwards a little so he can lean in and nose gently at his cheek. )
Fair warning, I'll probably need some aftercare after the fact.
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[With a tilt of his head, he meets Cy's lips, the kiss soft and intentional.]
Just tell me what you need.
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( one hand brushes at sasuke's cheek, and then he redoubles the kiss against his forehead. )
Do you want to come while we're doing the scene or not? Second point, if yes is there any way you want me to act about it or anything you want me to say? I know you're into the humiliation part sometimes, but I wanna make sure it's the right flavour, you know?
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I don't know if I would be able to hold back from coming, unless you prevented it, so... I'd rather not have a permanent restriction. A temporary one is fine within the scene itself. I also don't mind if you — call attention to it in that way, to humiliate me. I trust you.
[It really can't be overstated how much he trusts Cy's judgment.]
How should I prepare?
cw for cnc for the rest of this thread ig
( sometimes it's hard to divorce that feeling even from the context of a scene, especially when it's new. )
There's not really any special way. We'll just use a plug on you and then I'll ship you off. I am gonna make you wait a bit, but not too long, okay?
smh at them
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